Re: I'M FINE
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I Received An Email Today... Thought I'd Share It!
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Kevin,
Thank you for taking the time to reply to my message.
I'm FINE is an acronym I picked up in one of the many
classes I was forced into taking after being arrested
several times fo DUI.
I say forced, yet in the end I was grateful to have
them.
At the begining of my legal-woe-plague, I was very
resentful towards everything that the courts made me
do...
Now I realize, of course, the the courts did not make
me do anything, but drinking made me act irresponsibly
and the courts were trying to show me a path to a way
of not endangering myself or others by drinking and
driving.
So yes in the end I took what I needed from the "forced"
out patient classes.
Your reply mentions the AA meetings and the solace
I may find in them. I do go to meetings localy and
occaisionally. Never often enough, sometimes too
much.
I know, how can one go to a meeting "too much" or
too often?
For me too much was when I began to notice a
re-occuring theme within the group that I didn't
enjoy and found it more and more troubling.
A lack of honesty from some members and a lot of
preaching by others. The Sunday night group was
always a favorite for me, and I look forward to
returning to that group, my home group.
Anyway, I wanted to say thank you. Just being able
to say the words I did in that original email was
what I needed to get through that day. I did not
drink that day, or any since, and I am not going to
drink today.
You mentioned that you would like to post my email
for others to see. I am not sure if you need it or
not but you have my permission to do so.
I am all for anything that could help someone else
like me. I am an alcoholic, it does not make me a
bad person. It only means that I have a disease, an
allergy to alcohol. I do not control my drinking it
controls me, and I do not want to be controlled.
In my sobriety I have found that I can make my own
decisions and they are not dependant on where my next
drink will be.
Thank you, Again.
~dorian
